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Wed Oct 28, 2009, 9:57 PM
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: unreachable - john frusciante

Your real name: lisa
Age: 14
Height: 5'
Natural hair colour: black, crimson tint
Eye colour: Blue
Skin color: pale ivory
Glasses/contacts?: none
Piercings: they all sealed up :(
Tattoos: in the future
Braces: nope
Mannerisms: Huh?
Other distinctive markings: uhhh?

FAVOURITE
Colour: electric blue, red, black
Band: red hot chili peppers
Video game: dont play them
Movie: rocky balboa
Book: watership down
Food: ice cream
Game on a cell phone: dont play them
CD: stadium arcadium - red hot chili peppers
Flower: roses
Scent: ?
Animal: cats
Comic book: im not necesarily a nerd okay.
Cereal: weetbix
Website: facebook
Cartoon: i dont watch tv (hippie)

DO YOU
Play an instrument?: guitar, im being lead guitarist in an indie band when i turn 19
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: i dont even watch tv
Like to sing?: hell no
Have a job?: Not yet
Have a cell phone?: yeah of course
Like to play sports?: no i suck
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
Have a crush on someone?: confused between guys
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: australia
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: 2 but i dont watch it
Have any special talents/skills?: guitar, painting
Exercise daily?: nah
Like school?: no id rather play my guitar

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: hell no
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: Yup
Speak any other languages?: no
Go a day without food?: Yes
Remember your dreams: yeah...
Read music, not just tabs?: yeah i read music and tabs
Roll your tongue?: Yup
Eat a whole pizza?: No I can barely eat 2 pieces

HAVE YOU EVER
Won something in the lottery?: 6 dollars or something
Snuck out of the house?: hahhahaha
Lied to get out of trouble?: many times
Had a computer crash?: No
Gotten lost in your city?: No
Seen a shooting star?: Twice
Been to any other countries?: Japan , America and soon Europe
Had a serious surgery?: yeah on my nose
Stolen something important to someone else?: No
Solved a rubiks cube?: No
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yup All the time
Cried over a girl?: No
Cried over a boy?: yes
Kissed a random stranger?: no
Hugged a random stranger?: yep
Been in a fist fight?: a slap fight count?
Been arrested?: haha not yet
Done drugs?: not planning to
Had alcohol?: yeah
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: i dont really drink milk anwyay
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: Yeah
Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom?: while they were in there?
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: Nope
Swore at your parents?: Yes
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: Yeah
Been to a casino?: nah
Ran over an animal and killed it?: aww no
Broken a bone?: no!
Gotten stitches?: Na
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: We dont have winter here
Made homemade muffins?: like everyday lol!
Bitten someone?: No
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: No I wanna
Burped in someone’s face?: EWWW NO WAY

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: This morning
Cried: Today
Went to the bathroom: none of youre business
Saw a movie in a theatre: cant remember
Read a book: cant remember
Had a snow day: Never snows here
Had a party: last week having one tomorow
Went to a doctor: havent gone in a while
Tripped in front of someone: Dont remember
Went to the grocery store: 0 days ago
Got sick: i am sick right now
Got cursed: Dunno
Called someone: Dunno

DO YOU PREFER
Fruit/vegetables: Fruits but I also like vegtables =]
Black/white: Together make a great combination
Lights on/lights off: off
TV/movie: dont really watch either
Body spray/lotion: spray
Cash/cheque: CASH
Pillows/blankets: Blanket.
Headache/stomach ache: Nooo..
Paint/charcoal: Paint <3
Chinese food/Mexican food: Chinese =]
Summer/winter: I just want seasons
Snow/rain: I WANT SNOOOOOOW IT RAINS CONSTANT HERE
Fog/misty: Fog
Rock/rap: Rock! rap: ewww
Meat/vegetarian: confused about it now
Chocolate/vanilla: Choc
Sprinkles/icing: SPRINKLES
Cake/pie: Cake, dont really like pie xP
Strawberries/blueberries: Strawberrs
Ocean/swimming pool: ocean
Cookies/muffins: BOTH! <3
Wallet/pocket: PURSE
Window/door: Window you can see the sky from above <3
Charles Chaplin/Chespirito: Uhhh?
Pink/purple: Pink
Cat/dog: Cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve: SINGLET
Pants/shorts: Pants
Winter break/spring break: Winter is our long one
Spring/autumn: Autumn
Clouds/clear sky: clouds
Moon/mars: mars is euphoric
Questions/Answers: Answers because im bad at questions =]
War/Peace: peace

LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Do you believe in love?: yes
What's the most important kind of love for you?: someone that respects me and isnt a follower. a kind, sweet individual
Have you ever been in love?: yes
Been close to love?: yes
If you have, with who?: is it like you would know?
Ever confessed your feelings to the one you loved?: yeah
Really badly so that it actually hurts and you cry at night?: yes!
Are you in a relationship?: no
If so, for how long?:
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: yea
What is your idea of the best date?: a long long talk about all sorts of things
What was your first kiss like?: hilarious
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 6
Do you think love is worth nothing?: no
Best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex: haha
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: like 9ish
Have you ever been dumped?: no
Have you ever dumped someone?: no

I...
I Am: lisa harse of mars
I Want: to be one of the greatest guitarists and to be myself
I Need: myself
I Love: empyrean
I Hate: strong religion
I Feel: a connection to music
I Did: sneeze
I Miss: my cat
I Am annoyed by: nothing
I Would rather: i dont know
I Am tired of: saw fingers
I Will always: play the guitar

MISCELLANEOUS
What is your favourite genre of music?: cant choose!
What time is it now?: 3:55 pm
How much money do you have right now?: 10 bucks lol!
Are you hungry right now?: Nope
What are you doing right now?: This thing
Do you like parades?: Yea
Do you like the moon?: beautiful
What are you going to do when you're done with this?: guitar
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: flying

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
Funny?: no
Cool?: What? no ones cool
Pretty?: ....
Sarcastic?: no
Lazy?: no
Hyper?: no
Friendly?: yeah
Evil?: No
Unforgettable?: i guess
Smart?: no
Strong?: strong minded yes
Talented?: at guitar yes
Dorky?: no ones dorky

WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD
High: ethereal
Lonely: sorrow
Pen: logo
Flower: screen
Window: Snow
Psycho: Disco
Brain freeze: phone
Strange: sweet
Sassy: bitch
Suffering: cord
Art: world

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?: no way in hell
Run away?: No
Curse at a teacher?: yeah if i was pushed far enough
Not take a shower for a week?: Eww. no
Ask someone out?: yeah
Unscrew your cellphone to see what's inside?: No
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: No
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: yeah
Go scuba diving?: Yes
Write a book?: yeah
Assemble a computer?: Nah Computers are crap anyways
Become a rock star?: guitarist, that is my aspiration
Have a long-distance relationship?: yeah
Marry someone you don't know?: wtf no!

LAST QUESTIONS
What kind of computer do you have?: i dunno
What grade/level of studies are you in?: 9th grade
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: yeah.
How many posters do you have in your room?: a few
Who else should take this quiz?: People who have nothing better to do

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arcanum.

Fri Oct 2, 2009, 3:53 AM
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: unreachable - john frusciante
wow, i havent made a journal in over a month, and i havent really been active either. ive been doing alot of out of the ordinary things (to my previous self) that is now pretty frequent and ordinary. ive been playing guitar over and over until my fingers are all cut up and stuff, ive been analysing alot of music, including foo fighters, red hot chili peppers, ray lamontagne and john frusciante and nirvana.

i have also been spending alot of time on facebook, i have finally found someone that has quite a few similarities to me, hes a deep thinker, we have the same style in many ways. but whats helped me is, hes really well behaved which has really kept me on my toes (in a good way) now i dont even consider pinching some of my mums vodka, or getting that nose ring. hes really just so good for me in this pretty dark time in my life. i can really talk to him, plus hes more than a helper, were great friends too. i went over to his house 2 days ago, it was so nice, and hes coming over tomorow. im really honored to know him.

also some other news, i dyed my hair black with a tint of crimson, big change compared to the bleach blonde, it suits me so much more... makes my eyes look really blue! i got it as a birthday present, looks like y'all forgot my fourteenth yesterday, oh well i guess thats the karma for not keeping you guys updated.

ive done nothing i consider 'a fine peice of artwork' lately. to tell you the truth ive completely given up on artwork, yes after all that passion... guitar is coming my way definately, something i commit to, have to do, and love passionately. my ideas come out much more strongly in music anyway, which was my original aim. and also if i ever do an artwork now, its on a big canvas, all i do nowadays, no more pen and paper. so expect an artwork ever one or two months.

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tagged :o

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 22, 2009, 11:49 PM
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: god - john frusciante
1.)
1 x Publish these rules in your Journal
2 x Each Tagged person will write 8 things about themselves in their journals.
3 x At the end you will chose 8 people who will be tagged and publish their icons.
4 x Go to their page and send a message to let them know they've been tagged.
5 x Don't tag the person who has tagged you.

2.) a. i am a guitarist in a band called 'light on the horizon'
b. i like all kinds of music funk, hard rock, rock and indie!
c. i like dying my hair
d. i love chocolate
e. i think dogs are scary.
f. i find long hair on guys really attractive.
g. i love red hot chili peppers, john frusciante, guns n roses and foo fighters!

3. i dont know who to tag!

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody.
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very well quitting deviantART

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 15, 2009, 3:33 AM
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: god - john frusciante
yes, ive decided to pretty much quit deviantART all together. it was really great at first and it guided me in the perfect direction for my once, future dream. i have grown apart with art, and becoming fixated on the guitar, and i can tell its going to stay that way. i do paint, maybe ill come up with a good one every month or two but i dont really do the mass production that i used to. i will submit those ocassional paintings, but not often. maybe when im bored i might check and respond to comments.

music has officially pulled my heart in a different direction. i find it much easier to express myself in music than in art. because you can do it in so many ways, lyrically and musically. there are so many ways with music, but art anyone can do, truly. it just depends on if you like it or not. however music is far more different. its not as easy. you need discipline, you have to force yourself to practice for your own good. you have to master things with difficulty. its not as free and loose as art. i intepret music so well, its stunned so many people, and i feel much more confident with it than i do with art.

i believe music is a great way to make my mark in many ways, music is a whole new word. my music is suited for dark living rooms late at night. and my lyrics can scar people in a good way. i can annoy some persons with my music because i use language such as 'fucked', i need it in the lyrics though, its a great describing word. besides i want to just scream all i think out to the world. thats just me.

truth is i am strange. i do my hair in wild, even stunning hairstyles that do make people raise their eyebrows. i dress differently to everyone else, i wear bright coloured, even painful colours. i act strangely in public. im not afraid to headbang and show my moves in the middle of a shopping centre, it means nothing to me, what others think.

yes, i probably will sell my art and short stories when im older. but thats not what i want to be about. i want to be a guitarist. its me in everyways. i can do what i want on stage and no-one will even judge me. it may seem like i dont care what others think at all, and i dont, but it still hurts when someone will mention that one thing that makes me cringe and will ruin the last few hours. people mention the fact that i have a strange, unusual nose and thats true. they mention i have scary grey eyes, and thats true, but thats me and they have to accept that.

trying to be accepted is a hard thing. once i pushed so hard to try to be popular i hurt people hard along the way. one guy ~itzJV wont even speak to me anymore. i loved him so much as a friend. and luckily samara still talks to me, i managed to thankfully apologise to her. i caused so many bitchfights, over the internet, and in reality, i lost about 10 of my good friends in all of that. i felt so guilty i almost slashed myself, it was that bad. all my life my parents have wanted to divorce, that always pushes me into bursts of rage, where i can be so emotionally fragile.

my mum wont even accept me thats the truth. when i tried to be popular, and wore all the pretty, in clothes, she was so happy. i was fashionable and i was such a normal fun daughter. and now ive become a total wild individual and she cant accept that. she complains when i play the guitar. its my life. she wont accept when i listen to the same song over and over, to try to analyz the playing style to help me in my guitar persuit. sometimes she tells me to shut up when she doesnt like the subject im talking about eg.. the guitar or rhcp. that really hurts me.

the truth is my mum has broken my heart, and she will have hers broken too and im really sorry to do that to her because i loved her so much for most of my life. im gonna get the fuck away from here as soon as i can. i cant take it anymore. she exausts me mentally. i wont even invite her to any of my concerts. shes never done anything 'special' for me. i always pray that someday she will change and become an iconic mother, but maybe thats not her.

you know one person can stuff everything up. since i need to get away, it will delay my band search, by a couple of months or even years. which is everything to me. she doesnt even care about the fact im the leader of a great band 'light on the horizon'. me and my mum can have the greatest moments ,still. but if she has a bad day, everyone has a bad day.

the reason im quitting art is probably because my mum has always forced me into it. she made me practice all the time. and when i became old enough to think for myself, i decided to rebel.

thanks for reading this rediculously long journal.

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody.
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getting inked :)

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 11, 2009, 3:04 AM
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: central - john frusciante
The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody.

hey guys. its been a while. ive kind of getting over deviantart lately. guitar has consumed me more than ever. and so has the skate park haha. well as the title sais im waiting patiently until im 17 to get a few tattoos! ive thought carefully about what i want and i've decided!. im getting a link of 3 pink ,blue, and purple elephants (small) on my tailbone. and im also getting [link] that. except half the size, or even smaller. i love tattoos but me myself, im not confident enought to go all out on ink. im gonna draw the designs of my tattoos and submit them here! theyre only rough drafts so dont expect much.

guitar is taking hold of my life haha! its amazing, when something you love and want in life suddenly grabs hold. i expect you guys to be at one of my first concerts. i'm already in two bands. a rock/funk/hardrock band with no name yet consisting of strictly a singer, guitarist, bassist and drummer. and 'light on the horizon' a multi instrumental indie band. with me as backup vocals ,guitar, and violins. well neither of our bands have gotten very far at all. we havent even gotten fully together yet so dont expect anything. plus im not even too terrific at the guitar yet. i do have tallent but ive only been playing for about a year. my guitar style is very unusual. in the style of john frusiante. my guitar playing sometimes makes people raise their eyebrows haha!

ive been expireiencing so many family issues. i thought the divorce was going to cause peace, but its causting more dilemas. my mum has taken all my dads super expensive tools and sold them for shit on ebay. and shes getting DVOs (restraining orders) against him for no reason at all. and she wont pay her house payments, and the bank is taking our house this week. ill have to live at my dads all the time until they get a new house, and my mums probably gonna live on the street or something for a while, or in the car not sure. arghh i feel like im gonna shoot myself! but im not. haha dont worry guys.

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